One of his tears stops for a moment, as his throat seems to clog and he shakes a bit and clunches, Sexy a bit more.

Why couldn't he tell Rose? Meta had her family and Mickey to watch him. Someone was just making excuses again, weren't they? Rose told him already she's made her choice. Her choice was with him.

Why - why can't he allow himself to have nice things with these feelings he's allowed himself to feel?

Now, he's not so sure he wants to keep feeling.