The radiated calmness helps a bit - to clear his mind a bit but doesn't take away the ache from his hearts.
So? It meant more time with them. More adventures and she'd age slightly slower because she was traveling with him.
This way - this way he feels like he pulled the CORE of his being out of him - simply because he couldn't tell Jack or Martha to stay but commanding them too isn't right.
And Rose - just scared. Just scared like he was blasted last time.
Which The Doctor pushes Sexy a bit hard away from him before going over and pounding with his fists in anger and teeth glaring against the Tardis wall.
Without turning around towards Sexy replies softly with sad choked tone; "Yes.... And that I didn't want to begin to care for her, either."
It's his fault - it's his fault for making the choice of wanting to regenerate for Rose and having fallen in love with her.
"....
....
I don't. I don't want to keep going. I don't see the point. And I don't see the point of doing this all over again with someone else. And I can't - I can't love anyone more than Rose."
Then falls to his knees; well outside of Sexy - obviously.
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Date: 2019-01-01 04:57 am (UTC)So? It meant more time with them. More adventures and she'd age slightly slower because she was traveling with him.
This way - this way he feels like he pulled the CORE of his being out of him - simply because he couldn't tell Jack or Martha to stay but commanding them too isn't right.
And Rose - just scared. Just scared like he was blasted last time.
Which The Doctor pushes Sexy a bit hard away from him before going over and pounding with his fists in anger and teeth glaring against the Tardis wall.
Without turning around towards Sexy replies softly with sad choked tone; "Yes.... And that I didn't want to begin to care for her, either."
It's his fault - it's his fault for making the choice of wanting to regenerate for Rose and having fallen in love with her.
"....
....
I don't. I don't want to keep going. I don't see the point. And I don't see the point of doing this all over again with someone else. And I can't - I can't love anyone more than Rose."
Then falls to his knees; well outside of Sexy - obviously.